present moment

so much gratitude for myself for getting out of the house and getting down to deep eddy pool, out of my comfort zone of sitting in my thoughts and over analyzing ALL of them to packing a bag, getting my swim and yoga stuff together. Downloading a book from my mentor Brian Kurtz healedbyspirit.com “accessing the real you” and heading out to get some rays, take a nap, do yoga, and swim 30 lengths of the pool. To jump start my triathlon training, and how it felt so good to be back in the water doing laps.

To feel the Freedom of getting away from the farm and BEING FREE! Love the Farm don’t get me wrong but the freedom of just doing something for me felt even better.

Staying in the present moment of just being! Wondering to myself, why haven’t I done this sooner. I believe I had to go thru the period of darkness to see the light. The period of time of being alone, dealing with loneliness, and to feel all the feelings that went along with that period.

To really feel the True Freedom of being present and doing stuff for me, is much more appreciated from coming from the place of aloneness. I don’t think I would appreciate it as much as I do now. To give myself permission! Permission to relax and be me is key to all of this. Before I would probably feel guilty of I need to do this or that but now, I don’t this is MY TIME to be me however that looks like and to put ME FIRST!

Present Moment feels quite transformative as putting me first hasn’t happend in a long time. Super Grateful of the Self Love I have for me, after shying away from co dependence and if this person doesn’t validate me or my actions then I’m not gonna be happy.

That all changed the moment I started this blog, starting painting, and detaching my co dependency. And Now started a detox, putting my health first, exercise, me time, and its so refreshing and Freeing