my friend is back home visiting family, and so happy for her that she finally got to get from under the chaos of her life and is able to be free to be her and recharge. She hasn’t been home in over 5 months is what I’m thinking.
I got her dogs this weekend and don’t plan on calling her / texting until she is back next week. We usually text daily, but not really feeling the call to text her at all. my gift to her is to just give her a break and even give myself a break.
What is this need to feel I have to check in to be validated. This need in another person to feel whole, and not being able to hold my worth by just being.
I had a 10am therapy call with Brian from healedbyspirit. and been writing the last 25 years of my life, and to sit with him and go thru that. haven’t had that many jobs, but the growth within over the last 5 years has been so significant and most has been thru spirituality and the mindset of attachements, traumas, opening up my heart for other peoples traumas, holding safe space, being a protector, learning to be my own best friend and holding space for myself. Seeing my patterns, dissecting them, breaking them down, and learning how to be the best version of my life.
i am just getting back into blogging after taking a considerable amount of time off as i got distracted but this last friendship has helped me transform as a person in more ways then I can count. Especially with my friend holding my abandonment wound. I would say her name but due to confidentiality she is gonna be referred to as “her” again, me holding safety in the highest regard.
will come back to this after awhile.
Authentic and Free to be me 
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