Authentic and Free to be me

Tag: health

  • present moment

    so much gratitude for myself for getting out of the house and getting down to deep eddy pool, out of my comfort zone of sitting in my thoughts and over analyzing ALL of them to packing a bag, getting my swim and yoga stuff together. Downloading a book from my mentor Brian Kurtz healedbyspirit.com “accessing the real you” and heading out to get some rays, take a nap, do yoga, and swim 30 lengths of the pool. To jump start my triathlon training, and how it felt so good to be back in the water doing laps.

    To feel the Freedom of getting away from the farm and BEING FREE! Love the Farm don’t get me wrong but the freedom of just doing something for me felt even better.

    Staying in the present moment of just being! Wondering to myself, why haven’t I done this sooner. I believe I had to go thru the period of darkness to see the light. The period of time of being alone, dealing with loneliness, and to feel all the feelings that went along with that period.

    To really feel the True Freedom of being present and doing stuff for me, is much more appreciated from coming from the place of aloneness. I don’t think I would appreciate it as much as I do now. To give myself permission! Permission to relax and be me is key to all of this. Before I would probably feel guilty of I need to do this or that but now, I don’t this is MY TIME to be me however that looks like and to put ME FIRST!

    Present Moment feels quite transformative as putting me first hasn’t happend in a long time. Super Grateful of the Self Love I have for me, after shying away from co dependence and if this person doesn’t validate me or my actions then I’m not gonna be happy.

    That all changed the moment I started this blog, starting painting, and detaching my co dependency. And Now started a detox, putting my health first, exercise, me time, and its so refreshing and Freeing

  • the beauty of a solid yoga practice

    This morning I felt this calling to get on my mat to sort thru feelings, feelings of how to re establish my purpose in life. To get excited to get back into the gardens. Yes, I do have a community garden that I started but at times I get into my feels and it gets put on the back burner, Good thing I have such beautiful support on property when this happens.

    so back to my purpose ! Currently its about a solid yoga practice! being with your mat, just you and the mat, breath and thoughts is all I need. Its cheaper than a therapist and since I work at Blackswanyoga doing a work trade its free to attend all the classes I want. I Love Love Love the teachers at Black Swan. They put so much love into their classes. I am still in awe, on how they curate a class with music and how the music changes with each step of class. For them to memorize the correct name of each pose, talk thru class with such love. I took a yin yoga workshop with my sister from another mother Mari Bird. She taught that workshop with such love and how she shows up to all her classes she teaches.

    Back to the yoga mat. This morning, was different. Deep in thought, working thru a bit of a fog in my psyche, with tears forming and hope I could get the release as sometimes we all just need a good cry. I felt more centered than normal, usually I can be kind of a spaz / dancing while doing yoga. depends on my mood but today was just in a trance so to speak. Leaning into the pain in my heart and trying to shake it. How to detach from some aspects of my life and reattach in my purpose. I’m holding too strongly and co dependancy is happening and need to detach to get my bearings back, get grounded and find me again. My intention for class was, Clarity. perfect !

    Class was probably one of the Best Classes I have taken in a long time, I am in good shape, flexibility is on point and did do 2 perfect trees on both sides. Huge for me!

    After class, started to listening to one of my favorite songs

    author Satsang song is I AM

    On the drive home, the thought of a blog came to my thoughts, walked into my house and went straight to figuring out how to make it happen. and Here I am!